Anxiety & Me
As far as I can think back to I have always had social anxiety. I remember my mother pushing me along telling me to make friends with the other kids at the park or beach. But I was happy not making social interaction.
Most likely since making friends requires a ‘first’ and I hate trying new things since I can end up looking stupid if I do not know how to do it.
But even to this day when I have to go to a social occasion, I haven't been to before my heart starts racing.
It’s Not Just The New
It’s not just new social situations too. If I know a group of people, but I do not feel comfortable around them.
This could be because these people are not nice and can even pick on me even though we are all adults.
It’s just the more and more I go to a place with people who do not truly like me I wonder why I put myself through it as my anxiety and anger keep bubbling up.
So Why Go Then
I know what you are thinking why go to a place with people you don’t truly like, but unfortunately, it is not as easy as it sounds. Sometimes I get there and there are several people I didn’t know were invited. And truthfully, if I knew ahead of time I would have rather stayed home.
But sometimes it's because there is one specific person I want to see there and being uncomfortable is still worth seeing them.
It’s difficult for me to stand up for myself in these social environments, but I hope with time I will not put myself in a place I don’t want to be or stand up for myself more.
In the comments down below let me know how you handle being around people who do not see eye to eye with you.